Saturday, May 24, 2008

closer than you'd like

this is a poem i wrote yesterday after some heavy thinking about the position i occupy and the position another person, like me, occupies. needless to say, said person and i have much in common, more so than either of us probably realizes and it is simply a matter of many circumstances that we ever crossed paths in the first place. now that our lives have intersected in this overly-complicated manner, we share a common interest so strong that it almost seems as if it has bonded him and i in some sort of unsaid companionship. we are on the search for the same thing, for however much we think we know each other, there are so many aspects we can not write out or sketch up that it would take a lot of digging between lines and into shading to reach any solid conclusions about the intentions of either one of us. not enemies--more like two sides to the same coin, each wanting just as much as the other to not land facing the ground. purity is lighter than cowardice, so i have strong hope of my coming out on top. my coming into everything has given me a seat in the brain of a fellow traveler that can not come within an inch of my striking pace. i can walk and walk and walk. hours. days. years. and i can be a ghost.


and GHOSTS DON'T SHUT UP.


so here it is............................................thanks for your time and INTEREST.



he is the air

  opposing me-


the gusts coming downhill

   while i trudge upward


      (he bites like i do)


wraps himself around

  the parts of our fingers

 that have, in some senses,

      felt the same things


            (he's trying)


              (like me)


we stay up because

   we can't ask the wind to numb us enough-


          (our jaws hurt)


our senses wail with an 

  uncertainty regarding the stimulus


          (it's in all of us)


mine shines through the

  neatness of areas that do not belong to me


while he 

(suspended from a blade in the sky)

clips hope 

from the clouds and talks her back to

the rocky ground

   





Sunday, May 18, 2008

pas de touche (or numbers, aflame)

there is nothing in

  this world

like starting something


anticipating potential for

  the paper payed for

paper laid to wait with a

    pen along its spine


i've tasted greatness

  it numbed my entire mouth and

left me gasping with the chest

     i wasn't sure i possessed 


i took it all in 

   every breath more voracious

as i moved from fire to fire

  lighting my matches


swallowing every last one

  into my bottomless gut


they eat before i do

  and i make sure 

this hunger never coincides

   with the heart stopping


because i am as quiet 

   as this blood is tainted-


it flows through my veins like

   a fucking gravel road


and if i were to say anything

  about what to take with you and

what to leave behind it would be to

      just go


because no matter 

    where you

 leave that beat

it will follow you to 

   wherever you call home


and

 probably somewhere

    there's a burning left unanswered


possibly terminal,

  there's the difference 

 between ink and lead-


between water and

   whatever is thicker-


a smoldering

  told to be patient:

the most opulent sunshine 

    only comes after long night times


(i am always reminded of this

  once my eyes haven't shut)


but i know

  you can arrive at the most 

positive of outcomes by 

    multiplying two negatives


even if, as i understand,

  they are the same integer-


just one of the practical 

  applications of math

to the equation of ashes and life 

    divided by waiting